scary reality scares off the thought of scary fantasy
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I've never really liked scary stuff.
Though I guess that's also not true...? It would be hypocritical of me to say that I don't chase thrills. I might even go as far as to say that I'm something of an adrenaline junkie.
I love fighting others. I love rollercoasters. I love tearing it up in the forest on an ATV.
But I really don't like horror. I never have. So the other night, when I went to see Obsession at the theater, I was a little worried. I had never seen a horror movie like this. In fact, I had only seen two horror movies before, and they were not particularly scary.
I was really going out on a limb here.
I regret my decision. The movie really messed with me. It's strange for something fantastical to have such a sickening effect on me. I couldn't sleep at all that night, and I have been having poor sleep after that night as well, though it has been better.
The next day, I felt rather sick and anxious, but I had to head into work at my internship. I'm working as an intern software developer, and I've been enjoying it a lot. So, when my boss walked up to me asking about the pace of my work (I knew I was a little behind right now), I felt a sense of fear set deep in my stomach.
"Ah, well I've been having some issues with my living situation being flipped on it's head recently, so I wasn't getting as much work done from home as I'd like."
It wasn't the sole cause of me falling behind, though it certainly contributed to it. I probably should have answered more confidently. Maybe that would've made me seem like a better intern. I'm still stressed out about that interaction even now, two days later. It's dismissed the anxious thoughts I had about the movie, for the most part.
That's what inspired this article. It's interesting to me that, while the movie certainly scared me, my brain can still register that it was fantasy and that reality takes precedent. I guess I'm thankful? If I'm to be stressed out, I'd rather be stressed out about the things that matter.
Anyways, I may be tired and stressed, but it's time to get back to work- ૮(˶╥﹏╥)ა